I don't understand why..... human never LISTEN π?
Let's start off with my MOM... told her not to eat this, drink that, do not do this, just do that BUT she simply couldn't listen, understanding & follow what I say!!! I could only nag nag nag, explain explain explain & repeat myself ample times with no positive results!!! I cry, I become monster πΉ, I raise my voice, I gentle & I coax with poor outcomes. Hack la! Do what u want la! How many more years do we have to do all this mischievous acts?
Who is next?! Yes!!! Obviously, next would be my my mom's precious SON, my only blood related brother la!!! Another problematic MAN!!! Call yourself, a MAN? Come on la, how old are you? U have wasted half of ur life doing what? Please STOP & wait up ur ideas!!! STOP ur "RISK investment in Lion ten"! God damn it!!! When?!! Will I be free from your FONS ??? Try to save up some $$$MONEY!!! Even me, this stupidest idiot know that age is catching up & health is gradually report sick hence, save than risk it completely to build unnecessary AXE for yr national. We do not communicate as a family for care for each other, we are more like tenants n landlord living under one roof! I could forsee what alot of future problems u might face. However, probably our PA already predict it & he left u his matchbox shelter. Lucky u! Of course, I am jealous but happy for PA's arrangements. Even if now "PA" is sitting beside me, I am not scared to say this: PA, I am jealous of Ah Heng, have u forgotten that u also have a stupidest, dumb daughter? I have told PA before how I feel. I am not asking for any returns BUT please blessed us with a simple life in yr new world. Thank you.
Next... Work, politics... never ending stress for lazy me...being lazy, I can't meet others expectations... I am miserable so does the other parties. Upcoming HA on 5th March 2015! I think I can make. Politics... to me, such a smallest fry is a challenge! I do not wish to be sweep into the politic typhoon, I will feel terrible, no cure, no antidote & eventually die! Even though, my ideal plan is to move on to clinic when I am 35 years old but I feel abit regret for this 8months of new job scope. Well, I probably need to find ways to survive n live happily ever after. I need more more more time for adjustments. Hopefully I can make it by December 2015.
My 3rd uncle is another challenging man who smokes freely like a chimney. (MY BRO ALSO!!!) Why? Didn't u see how my PA suffer? He already WARNS u all to stop smoking π¬ QUIT it! Nevertheless, ultimately it's ur OWN body! Do whatever u want. Do u know u all are also dragging us to hell cos we are also inhaling second-hand FOC toxic smoke? Is it fun to see us get potential CA free gift from God one day? Is this the way u all want us to suffer? Yayay. .. back to my theory- life is Short, never mind- just SMOKE while u like! Consequences comes later & it may be too late to do anything to service recover!
Am I having a lot of anger? Yes, 101% that I am angry because I didn't do anything to change or force changes. I've learned recently, u need a Vision in order to make changes will be carry out effectively. I only wish to be a SIMPLE STUPIDEST monkey π with adequate amount of family love, care & concern, true friends that cares for me as what I am; a super passive person. Most importantly, my LC continues to understand me, pamper me like a princess even though I am getting older n uglier. I am always envious about old couples who share love n concern for each other, ;holding hands tightly worrying that other old man will steal her θprincess πΈ.
Thank you for listening. I am writing this blog under my block.... it's so late but it's so windy here. I am enjoying being ALONE. I used to go ECP to relax myself when I am troubled or bad things happened to me. Ok, my eyes is warning me..... eyes π say " I don't understand why is she blogging at this time after Ah Fong sessions, after Kickboxing & after 3 mini bread intake!!!" Stop blogging la! I closing in 10mins! !! π
Friday, February 27, 2015
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Happy birthday π
Today is CNY εδΈ aka δΊΊζ₯ which means it's everyone's birthday π! Happy birthday everyone before the clock strikes 12MN!
Some people/family will practice ζι±Όη!!
After work, I went to BKP to purchase my pay day craving dinner since mom is not cooking. Saw so many people queuing at Ichiban boshi to buy ι±Όη home. So envy! I always envy people who share close relationship with family members and relative especially big family πͺ. So nice, everyone gather together to ζι±Όηlor!
Overheard a couple conversation. ....
Husband: (noticing wifey looking at people who is queuing up to buy ι±Όη) He asked wifey," do you want to ζι±Όη? "
Wifey: Only the 2 of us, how to ζι±Όη, cannot finish also.
Husband: Take out his HP & start to make arrangements.
Me: So envious cos they could just call their family or friends to join in. So nice.
That's impossible for me to contact people to do this type of events...
Nevertheless, I had a full craving meal as requested by my tummy. Japanese rice, wakami salad $6.30π¨, fried chicken π for dinner alone.
Today is δΊΊζ₯, can i make a wish?
Wished all can have good health, good weather & good career.
Some people/family will practice ζι±Όη!!
After work, I went to BKP to purchase my pay day craving dinner since mom is not cooking. Saw so many people queuing at Ichiban boshi to buy ι±Όη home. So envy! I always envy people who share close relationship with family members and relative especially big family πͺ. So nice, everyone gather together to ζι±Όηlor!
Overheard a couple conversation. ....
Husband: (noticing wifey looking at people who is queuing up to buy ι±Όη) He asked wifey," do you want to ζι±Όη? "
Wifey: Only the 2 of us, how to ζι±Όη, cannot finish also.
Husband: Take out his HP & start to make arrangements.
Me: So envious cos they could just call their family or friends to join in. So nice.
That's impossible for me to contact people to do this type of events...
Nevertheless, I had a full craving meal as requested by my tummy. Japanese rice, wakami salad $6.30π¨, fried chicken π for dinner alone.
Today is δΊΊζ₯, can i make a wish?
Wished all can have good health, good weather & good career.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Topic requested by LC-1
Blog topic requested by LC-1: Where I want my LambChop to bring me?
I want my LC to bring me to his world π. Epic answer?!! I always wanted to go to my LC's world. I feel I am from another planet trying to connect with him but it seems to be a dream. I know he is loving me with all he can with his heart, providing & fulfilling my wishes with his best resources. His way of letting me taking care of his finance is buying all things that I like. However, I am a very greedy Monkey who desires more than materialistic items. It's the soul connections, able to talk anything under the sun without withholding any words that worrying to hurt or anger each other. Probably, you will say..."Eeee, CMI aka cannot make it! Like some other gals who wished to control their the other half finance, I only wish to take care of my LC's finance & not control. To be more specific, it means knowing how much he earned, any winning or lose from his investments during friendly MJ or building axe. I guess he worries if I would nag, angry & "can't sleep"/ can't stop asking if I know the amount of investment he have done. Finance aka $π΅is a sensitive topic to talk about actually. To me, it feels like a barrier between us. I am also learning to "let it go, let it go!" Stop my curiosity & interest in being finance minister. Hope I would succeed.
Places in Singapore: Go with LambChop :... so long never go beach, fly kite, bowling, ktv. Places that has live band, I am still thinking, add on when I have inspiration.
Bring me & mama go: Zoo, sentosa sea aquarium
As for which countries I want my LambChop to bring me? My answer will be lame... many lor! Wished to go many countries.
For example, 1)Taiwan-Taipei, Kending, etc, exploring their different parts of Taiwan, understanding their cultures, taste each places specialty. 2) Korea 3) Philippines 4)Japan 5)New Zealand 6) Europe 7) Australia 8) BKK
Not in alphabetical order, depends on mood, season, air-fare price,available leave etc.
What about my LambChop?
I want my LC to bring me to his world π. Epic answer?!! I always wanted to go to my LC's world. I feel I am from another planet trying to connect with him but it seems to be a dream. I know he is loving me with all he can with his heart, providing & fulfilling my wishes with his best resources. His way of letting me taking care of his finance is buying all things that I like. However, I am a very greedy Monkey who desires more than materialistic items. It's the soul connections, able to talk anything under the sun without withholding any words that worrying to hurt or anger each other. Probably, you will say..."Eeee, CMI aka cannot make it! Like some other gals who wished to control their the other half finance, I only wish to take care of my LC's finance & not control. To be more specific, it means knowing how much he earned, any winning or lose from his investments during friendly MJ or building axe. I guess he worries if I would nag, angry & "can't sleep"/ can't stop asking if I know the amount of investment he have done. Finance aka $π΅is a sensitive topic to talk about actually. To me, it feels like a barrier between us. I am also learning to "let it go, let it go!" Stop my curiosity & interest in being finance minister. Hope I would succeed.
Places in Singapore: Go with LambChop :... so long never go beach, fly kite, bowling, ktv. Places that has live band, I am still thinking, add on when I have inspiration.
Bring me & mama go: Zoo, sentosa sea aquarium
As for which countries I want my LambChop to bring me? My answer will be lame... many lor! Wished to go many countries.
For example, 1)Taiwan-Taipei, Kending, etc, exploring their different parts of Taiwan, understanding their cultures, taste each places specialty. 2) Korea 3) Philippines 4)Japan 5)New Zealand 6) Europe 7) Australia 8) BKK
Not in alphabetical order, depends on mood, season, air-fare price,available leave etc.
What about my LambChop?
Sunday, February 22, 2015
CNY 2015
CNY 2015 is just another day, another yearly festival, a love-hate relationship with CNY.
I loved CNY when I was young. My aunties, uncles will come to my Grandma house (my family stays with Grandma in a big kampong house in " Lim Chu Kang") to celebrate CNY. My mom's "PorPor" will bring us to Bukit Timah Beauty would to buy some new clothes & food for me, brother & family. I loved it. My mom will slaughter ducks, chickens & prepare to give my uncles & aunties. I get to play with cousins. After my Grandma passed away, all these activites gradually cease.
Over the years, I developed a Love-Hate relationship for CNY.
I have always envy people who has a big family who shares close bonding with each family members. I am not so lucky to be part of this group.
I have a unique mom.
I just wished to have a normal family, probably difficult in this life, maybe next life-please try again next life.
Last year, my dad passed away hence according to chinese customs, we are not allowed to celebrate CNY (Anyway, we don't celebrate CNY in my family). My unique mom doesn't understand why we can't celebrate CNY. My brother once again did not contribute to the CNY stuffs- not surprising at all, predictable! No reunion dinner is common in my BKP hse too! We went to 3rd uncle & Ah Yee house as per mom's request. As usual, commom questions arised- my cousin asked," when are u getting married?" Any plans for kids? Nothing much to say mah!
Occassionally, I would ask my LC- "Can u bring me along whenever he say he is going to his customer house?" I know his reply would be " Cannot cos it's work related ." This year, he brought me along to his friends house. Thank you for bringing me. I am not trying to be the gal who want to intrude your peaceful life. Just want to know. No need to bring me along next time. I had great fun. Thank you.
I loved CNY when I was young. My aunties, uncles will come to my Grandma house (my family stays with Grandma in a big kampong house in " Lim Chu Kang") to celebrate CNY. My mom's "PorPor" will bring us to Bukit Timah Beauty would to buy some new clothes & food for me, brother & family. I loved it. My mom will slaughter ducks, chickens & prepare to give my uncles & aunties. I get to play with cousins. After my Grandma passed away, all these activites gradually cease.
Over the years, I developed a Love-Hate relationship for CNY.
I have always envy people who has a big family who shares close bonding with each family members. I am not so lucky to be part of this group.
I have a unique mom.
I just wished to have a normal family, probably difficult in this life, maybe next life-please try again next life.
Last year, my dad passed away hence according to chinese customs, we are not allowed to celebrate CNY (Anyway, we don't celebrate CNY in my family). My unique mom doesn't understand why we can't celebrate CNY. My brother once again did not contribute to the CNY stuffs- not surprising at all, predictable! No reunion dinner is common in my BKP hse too! We went to 3rd uncle & Ah Yee house as per mom's request. As usual, commom questions arised- my cousin asked," when are u getting married?" Any plans for kids? Nothing much to say mah!
Occassionally, I would ask my LC- "Can u bring me along whenever he say he is going to his customer house?" I know his reply would be " Cannot cos it's work related ." This year, he brought me along to his friends house. Thank you for bringing me. I am not trying to be the gal who want to intrude your peaceful life. Just want to know. No need to bring me along next time. I had great fun. Thank you.
I don't understand!
To LIVE no matter how hard is life or to END to cease the sufferings? Which one needs more courage? I don't understand!? I have witnssed people i.e. jumping from high floor but actually he is under alcohol influence hence he might not know what he is doing! From newspaper reports on how people live to the fullest no matter how hard their live is, people who commit suicide or attempt to kill due to minor misunderstanding or thoughts/depression.
I don't understand! How do people conclude how their life should be ongoing or discontinued?
As a white angels, I have different encounters from the customers, their loved ones, the Healthcare workers & Drs etc. Some do their best to live for their loved ones & for themselves. Some can't be bothered. Some leave it to fate. Medical bills have become a heavy burden to some families. Seeking treatment is crucial, maintaining it take perseverance & good mentality to go on.
Why such a sad blog?
Just a thought!
Me?! What's my thought? I don't know! For now, I only wished my life would be simple. My mom would be healthy, free of pain, happy & no bad thought. My brother could think for himself, be a man who can care for himself, take care of his mom & be healthy.
I don't understand! How do people conclude how their life should be ongoing or discontinued?
As a white angels, I have different encounters from the customers, their loved ones, the Healthcare workers & Drs etc. Some do their best to live for their loved ones & for themselves. Some can't be bothered. Some leave it to fate. Medical bills have become a heavy burden to some families. Seeking treatment is crucial, maintaining it take perseverance & good mentality to go on.
Why such a sad blog?
Just a thought!
Me?! What's my thought? I don't know! For now, I only wished my life would be simple. My mom would be healthy, free of pain, happy & no bad thought. My brother could think for himself, be a man who can care for himself, take care of his mom & be healthy.
Wednesday, February 18, 2015
Goodbye Horse Year!
In one hour's time, time to bid goodbye Mr/Ms Horse & welcome Mr/Ms Lamb!
Let's have a quick recap!
A lot of happenings!!! From CCU-> CTSICU->HF->NSCU->HF. Dad passed on 18/5/2014 am. Trip: Macau, HK, Japan. Missed a few events like 2wedding, 1 house warming, what else did I missed. No longer able to bond with my colleagues..... feels I am so "Just a hihi, bb friend"! Feels so out of place & ..... different! It allows me to understand, no pain= no gain, I did not do my part to maintain our friendship operation. Now need to deal with different job scope, maintain my "Shield" to prevent any damage & my safety. Goodbye Dad, u made me understand that ..."don't keep things unsaid & ask even though u know what tis outcome already. How about me? Too many till I can't remember. Health not so good...sick sick sick....My Bro who seldom helped home & worked like 24hours but doesn't seems to earn enough money. Giving my mom $10 makes my mom super happy!
Hubby... U r the person whom keep me going, always try ur best to appreciate me & tolerate me.
Looking forward for a better year with Mr/Ms Lamb.
Better health, hard to slim down til target: 50kg by end of Dec 2015.
Maintain a stable, communicative relationship with hubby. Wished Hubby could share more informations with me. Whenever I sees bad news on TV, I would wonder if the dead party or the living parties has any regrets? Looking forward Japan trip with Hubby.
Better adaptation to my current job with regards to working timing, Bosses, colleagues, higher management, working partners etc. I don't how long more before I can ditch the miserable thoughts or feelings.
Wished my Mom- good health, be a good girl & listen to me and don't disturb me so much.
That's all for me, update again if needed.
Happy lunar new year in 8mins time. Tq
Saturday, February 14, 2015
14 February 2015
Today is our 14th Valentine's Day since we started dating! Am I right?!
I am always being pampered by U like a Princess on this special day. Will there be more to come? I received a $20 worth red rose...stingy me was like...happy but EXpensive; not worth the price for 1 rose. Had my favourite Japanese restaurant at Far East Shopping centre...another $80. OMG!
U granted my wishes today... 1) Hairy monster tx, 2) Fave hotdog bread, 3) Far faraway threading service. Thank U!
U surprised me with MCM wallet....I loved it! Suit me! Brown & Cony soft toy set...despite EX, u bought for me...I like it!
Bad me...wanted to give a handmade card filled with mushy thoughts for U but I didn't have enough time to do it! i am bad at buying presents for u. Hope I can get something for u in September cos it is one of my favourite month of the year! Can U wait til September for ur pressie? Tell me what u wished for is even better.
Thank u for......Loving me............................& everything.
Monday, February 2, 2015
Hello February!
Times flies!!! It's February, one of my favourite month every year.
Cos...one of my longest friend's birthday on 1.2.15- Priscilla Tan. I have known her since 1994 when she came to my class with Teck Whye Secondary school uniform & being 1.7m tall gal. She is outstanding shiny gal who blocks my view of the blackboard on the first day if I was sitting behind her.
Cos...it's Valentines' time day. I had a surprised gift on Valentines' day ...maybe 10years ago when my silly Ex-BF send me a bouquet of red Roses. Now, I am already a OLD Ex-GF but "chomp" already by silly goose--flowers is really expensive and not that necessary to be given on V-day if not so Expensive! I know he already got me a pressie....hehehhe.....I know where is it!
Cos... Courts & Novena furniture store is going to send me my purchases on 8/2/15 dining table, & steamboat cum BBQ gadget for CNY.
Cos ... Singtel coming to fix a new telepline in Bukit Panjang.
Cos.... I am spending 3D2N in Macau with LC.
To be updated.
Cos...one of my longest friend's birthday on 1.2.15- Priscilla Tan. I have known her since 1994 when she came to my class with Teck Whye Secondary school uniform & being 1.7m tall gal. She is outstanding shiny gal who blocks my view of the blackboard on the first day if I was sitting behind her.
Cos...it's Valentines' time day. I had a surprised gift on Valentines' day ...maybe 10years ago when my silly Ex-BF send me a bouquet of red Roses. Now, I am already a OLD Ex-GF but "chomp" already by silly goose--flowers is really expensive and not that necessary to be given on V-day if not so Expensive! I know he already got me a pressie....hehehhe.....I know where is it!
Cos... Courts & Novena furniture store is going to send me my purchases on 8/2/15 dining table, & steamboat cum BBQ gadget for CNY.
Cos ... Singtel coming to fix a new telepline in Bukit Panjang.
Cos.... I am spending 3D2N in Macau with LC.
To be updated.
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