It is a sad monday... Mr LKY has went to another world today.
Someone told me that death is a natural process in a life cycle, the differences are how are I going to die & when will it be.
It is never easy to announce that ur loved one passed away. I had this painful experience last year in 18th May 2014 when my Pa passed away in the hospital & I watched him fade away without being able to take away some of his sufferings & pain. But being able to accompany him by his side, I hope he can forgive me. I cannot forget the day before he become drowsy, he is so alert & able to talk to us. My only wish is he could be pain free & no more sufferings. I remembered that the day when his condition deteriorate & the Dr call us to visit him early. We accompanied him, listen to YouTube together, held his hand & asked him for forgiveness & asked him go peacefully. All I can do is to watch him... walking towards death or a better world without sufferings til the next morning when he is really to go. I was ALONE in the hospital. I thought I could hold my emotions & tears but I didn't. When he is alive, I never say..."Pa, I love u!"
To tell u the truth, I hated him sometimes BUT for a short while. Being the first child for my parents, I was told my dad did not pick me up when I was discharge from hospital just because I am baby girl. Why? Baby girl is also a gift from heaven & a love gift. Being a eldest & girl was not easy, feel I am not treated fairly. He forget to think about my future. However, my Pa still dote me, he know I loved bitter durians, crab claw etc & he will reserved for me.
I missed u, Pa... I hope u are in a better place & happy now. Loved YOU.
Be Strong, Lee family.
Monday, March 23, 2015
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
My Wishlists
My Wishlists before u start ur degree...
Watch movie π₯
Go KTV πΊ to sing sing sing
ECP
Marmalade Pantry near turf city for night live band
Sentosa
Temporary wishlists...
New added wishlist
Be a gentle wifey
Cook a meal for LC once in a blue moon.
Watch movie π₯
Go KTV πΊ to sing sing sing
ECP
Marmalade Pantry near turf city for night live band
Sentosa
Temporary wishlists...
New added wishlist
Be a gentle wifey
Cook a meal for LC once in a blue moon.
Sunday, March 15, 2015
About March Me :)
Lately, I am in love with Jigsaw puzzles. Went shopping with hubby at Bugis & I bought a 300pcs Tontoro puzzle- 75% completed. 12.3.15- bought Eiffel Tower 1000pcs puzzles that cost me $43.90; frame not included, at a shop in Velocity recommended by Oliver.
I also signed up for Kickboxing at promotional price- $588 for 24 lessons over 6months. Currently, I still have 1more lesson from Groupon. I find that Kickboxing is fun but tiring. I love the rapid boxing movements, allow me to vent my frustrations. I think I over do it, now my shoulder is still aching after my 2nd lesson. I hope that I won't regret signing up for the lessons for $588. $100 each month & aim to go for 1 class per week. I aim to at least lose 3 kg over the 6months. It is because I am gluton, I love to eat. Currently, my weight is 53kg as of March 2015, my aim is to be 50kg by September 2015. Will I be able to achieve my goal? To be evaluate in September.
Yesterday, I met KPO aunties in the lift & they asked me when am I getting married. My reply to their question is SMILE. She then SAY..."this yr u ALREADY 36 hor, u same age as my daughter hor, faster get married & pregnant, if not difficult!!! My reply was, SMILE & say 37 already!! Inside my heart- mind ur business please. Having a kid is probably every women's wish, duty & ways to prove that u r a woman who has functioning reproductive system. It is like a man should have their own career that proves their abilities. Each man or woman is an unique individual who may or may not fufil their gender assignments. Nevertheless, thank u KPO aunties for ur concern but u all don't need to worry too much for me.
Yesterday, 3rd uncle & auntie invited me & mom to their place for dinner. 3rd auntie commented that my skin is fair & smooth. Then 3rd uncle say, "I think Ah Hwa put on weight that's y her face looks fair & better circulation." Yes, I have gained some weight. Then 3rd uncle say, "Ah Hwa, u got white hair ah?" Yes, I have many white hair. Good observations. Dinner was simple but yummy. Soup & steamed fish. I am going to keep a lookout for the temporary stall that sells the sauce for steaming fish, I liked it. I asked them to cook for me sometimes & I passed $ to them to get the ingredients. They agreed. (* Last night, I dreamt LC went to 3rd uncle house with to have dinner ^.^...funny!)
Pre-BD celebration dinner with Buddies trip friends-W, J, R & I on 13 March 2015. Had my favourite Japanese restaurant set dinner, followed by desserts at TCC. Gossiping sessions... J suppose to be the hot favourite candidate to be promoted to NC but missed. Another candidate, M got it! When M got it, NC OBG called to ask ADN T why J did not get promoted?! J has been a hot favourite & ADN T likes her alot & has intention to promote her. It's all politics la! When ADN T saw J, she said this to her, " M get promoted before u doesn't she is better than U?!" So sad, if I am M & I heard this. Whatever it is, just hear & blog here & not to say this to anybody else if I still want my life & job. Heard from J & W that M is not well liked by ADN T, but I saw with my own eyes before the promotion results is out, M went to see ADN T & they were in good conditions! Scary, all so fake? I also fake sometimes at work to keep myself alive. Sometimes, die also don't what is the reasons.
Sleepy le...byezzz
I also signed up for Kickboxing at promotional price- $588 for 24 lessons over 6months. Currently, I still have 1more lesson from Groupon. I find that Kickboxing is fun but tiring. I love the rapid boxing movements, allow me to vent my frustrations. I think I over do it, now my shoulder is still aching after my 2nd lesson. I hope that I won't regret signing up for the lessons for $588. $100 each month & aim to go for 1 class per week. I aim to at least lose 3 kg over the 6months. It is because I am gluton, I love to eat. Currently, my weight is 53kg as of March 2015, my aim is to be 50kg by September 2015. Will I be able to achieve my goal? To be evaluate in September.
Yesterday, I met KPO aunties in the lift & they asked me when am I getting married. My reply to their question is SMILE. She then SAY..."this yr u ALREADY 36 hor, u same age as my daughter hor, faster get married & pregnant, if not difficult!!! My reply was, SMILE & say 37 already!! Inside my heart- mind ur business please. Having a kid is probably every women's wish, duty & ways to prove that u r a woman who has functioning reproductive system. It is like a man should have their own career that proves their abilities. Each man or woman is an unique individual who may or may not fufil their gender assignments. Nevertheless, thank u KPO aunties for ur concern but u all don't need to worry too much for me.
Yesterday, 3rd uncle & auntie invited me & mom to their place for dinner. 3rd auntie commented that my skin is fair & smooth. Then 3rd uncle say, "I think Ah Hwa put on weight that's y her face looks fair & better circulation." Yes, I have gained some weight. Then 3rd uncle say, "Ah Hwa, u got white hair ah?" Yes, I have many white hair. Good observations. Dinner was simple but yummy. Soup & steamed fish. I am going to keep a lookout for the temporary stall that sells the sauce for steaming fish, I liked it. I asked them to cook for me sometimes & I passed $ to them to get the ingredients. They agreed. (* Last night, I dreamt LC went to 3rd uncle house with to have dinner ^.^...funny!)
Pre-BD celebration dinner with Buddies trip friends-W, J, R & I on 13 March 2015. Had my favourite Japanese restaurant set dinner, followed by desserts at TCC. Gossiping sessions... J suppose to be the hot favourite candidate to be promoted to NC but missed. Another candidate, M got it! When M got it, NC OBG called to ask ADN T why J did not get promoted?! J has been a hot favourite & ADN T likes her alot & has intention to promote her. It's all politics la! When ADN T saw J, she said this to her, " M get promoted before u doesn't she is better than U?!" So sad, if I am M & I heard this. Whatever it is, just hear & blog here & not to say this to anybody else if I still want my life & job. Heard from J & W that M is not well liked by ADN T, but I saw with my own eyes before the promotion results is out, M went to see ADN T & they were in good conditions! Scary, all so fake? I also fake sometimes at work to keep myself alive. Sometimes, die also don't what is the reasons.
Sleepy le...byezzz
Friday, February 27, 2015
I don't understand why?
I don't understand why..... human never LISTEN π?
Let's start off with my MOM... told her not to eat this, drink that, do not do this, just do that BUT she simply couldn't listen, understanding & follow what I say!!! I could only nag nag nag, explain explain explain & repeat myself ample times with no positive results!!! I cry, I become monster πΉ, I raise my voice, I gentle & I coax with poor outcomes. Hack la! Do what u want la! How many more years do we have to do all this mischievous acts?
Who is next?! Yes!!! Obviously, next would be my my mom's precious SON, my only blood related brother la!!! Another problematic MAN!!! Call yourself, a MAN? Come on la, how old are you? U have wasted half of ur life doing what? Please STOP & wait up ur ideas!!! STOP ur "RISK investment in Lion ten"! God damn it!!! When?!! Will I be free from your FONS ??? Try to save up some $$$MONEY!!! Even me, this stupidest idiot know that age is catching up & health is gradually report sick hence, save than risk it completely to build unnecessary AXE for yr national. We do not communicate as a family for care for each other, we are more like tenants n landlord living under one roof! I could forsee what alot of future problems u might face. However, probably our PA already predict it & he left u his matchbox shelter. Lucky u! Of course, I am jealous but happy for PA's arrangements. Even if now "PA" is sitting beside me, I am not scared to say this: PA, I am jealous of Ah Heng, have u forgotten that u also have a stupidest, dumb daughter? I have told PA before how I feel. I am not asking for any returns BUT please blessed us with a simple life in yr new world. Thank you.
Next... Work, politics... never ending stress for lazy me...being lazy, I can't meet others expectations... I am miserable so does the other parties. Upcoming HA on 5th March 2015! I think I can make. Politics... to me, such a smallest fry is a challenge! I do not wish to be sweep into the politic typhoon, I will feel terrible, no cure, no antidote & eventually die! Even though, my ideal plan is to move on to clinic when I am 35 years old but I feel abit regret for this 8months of new job scope. Well, I probably need to find ways to survive n live happily ever after. I need more more more time for adjustments. Hopefully I can make it by December 2015.
My 3rd uncle is another challenging man who smokes freely like a chimney. (MY BRO ALSO!!!) Why? Didn't u see how my PA suffer? He already WARNS u all to stop smoking π¬ QUIT it! Nevertheless, ultimately it's ur OWN body! Do whatever u want. Do u know u all are also dragging us to hell cos we are also inhaling second-hand FOC toxic smoke? Is it fun to see us get potential CA free gift from God one day? Is this the way u all want us to suffer? Yayay. .. back to my theory- life is Short, never mind- just SMOKE while u like! Consequences comes later & it may be too late to do anything to service recover!
Am I having a lot of anger? Yes, 101% that I am angry because I didn't do anything to change or force changes. I've learned recently, u need a Vision in order to make changes will be carry out effectively. I only wish to be a SIMPLE STUPIDEST monkey π with adequate amount of family love, care & concern, true friends that cares for me as what I am; a super passive person. Most importantly, my LC continues to understand me, pamper me like a princess even though I am getting older n uglier. I am always envious about old couples who share love n concern for each other, ;holding hands tightly worrying that other old man will steal her θprincess πΈ.
Thank you for listening. I am writing this blog under my block.... it's so late but it's so windy here. I am enjoying being ALONE. I used to go ECP to relax myself when I am troubled or bad things happened to me. Ok, my eyes is warning me..... eyes π say " I don't understand why is she blogging at this time after Ah Fong sessions, after Kickboxing & after 3 mini bread intake!!!" Stop blogging la! I closing in 10mins! !! π
Let's start off with my MOM... told her not to eat this, drink that, do not do this, just do that BUT she simply couldn't listen, understanding & follow what I say!!! I could only nag nag nag, explain explain explain & repeat myself ample times with no positive results!!! I cry, I become monster πΉ, I raise my voice, I gentle & I coax with poor outcomes. Hack la! Do what u want la! How many more years do we have to do all this mischievous acts?
Who is next?! Yes!!! Obviously, next would be my my mom's precious SON, my only blood related brother la!!! Another problematic MAN!!! Call yourself, a MAN? Come on la, how old are you? U have wasted half of ur life doing what? Please STOP & wait up ur ideas!!! STOP ur "RISK investment in Lion ten"! God damn it!!! When?!! Will I be free from your FONS ??? Try to save up some $$$MONEY!!! Even me, this stupidest idiot know that age is catching up & health is gradually report sick hence, save than risk it completely to build unnecessary AXE for yr national. We do not communicate as a family for care for each other, we are more like tenants n landlord living under one roof! I could forsee what alot of future problems u might face. However, probably our PA already predict it & he left u his matchbox shelter. Lucky u! Of course, I am jealous but happy for PA's arrangements. Even if now "PA" is sitting beside me, I am not scared to say this: PA, I am jealous of Ah Heng, have u forgotten that u also have a stupidest, dumb daughter? I have told PA before how I feel. I am not asking for any returns BUT please blessed us with a simple life in yr new world. Thank you.
Next... Work, politics... never ending stress for lazy me...being lazy, I can't meet others expectations... I am miserable so does the other parties. Upcoming HA on 5th March 2015! I think I can make. Politics... to me, such a smallest fry is a challenge! I do not wish to be sweep into the politic typhoon, I will feel terrible, no cure, no antidote & eventually die! Even though, my ideal plan is to move on to clinic when I am 35 years old but I feel abit regret for this 8months of new job scope. Well, I probably need to find ways to survive n live happily ever after. I need more more more time for adjustments. Hopefully I can make it by December 2015.
My 3rd uncle is another challenging man who smokes freely like a chimney. (MY BRO ALSO!!!) Why? Didn't u see how my PA suffer? He already WARNS u all to stop smoking π¬ QUIT it! Nevertheless, ultimately it's ur OWN body! Do whatever u want. Do u know u all are also dragging us to hell cos we are also inhaling second-hand FOC toxic smoke? Is it fun to see us get potential CA free gift from God one day? Is this the way u all want us to suffer? Yayay. .. back to my theory- life is Short, never mind- just SMOKE while u like! Consequences comes later & it may be too late to do anything to service recover!
Am I having a lot of anger? Yes, 101% that I am angry because I didn't do anything to change or force changes. I've learned recently, u need a Vision in order to make changes will be carry out effectively. I only wish to be a SIMPLE STUPIDEST monkey π with adequate amount of family love, care & concern, true friends that cares for me as what I am; a super passive person. Most importantly, my LC continues to understand me, pamper me like a princess even though I am getting older n uglier. I am always envious about old couples who share love n concern for each other, ;holding hands tightly worrying that other old man will steal her θprincess πΈ.
Thank you for listening. I am writing this blog under my block.... it's so late but it's so windy here. I am enjoying being ALONE. I used to go ECP to relax myself when I am troubled or bad things happened to me. Ok, my eyes is warning me..... eyes π say " I don't understand why is she blogging at this time after Ah Fong sessions, after Kickboxing & after 3 mini bread intake!!!" Stop blogging la! I closing in 10mins! !! π
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
Happy birthday π
Today is CNY εδΈ aka δΊΊζ₯ which means it's everyone's birthday π! Happy birthday everyone before the clock strikes 12MN!
Some people/family will practice ζι±Όη!!
After work, I went to BKP to purchase my pay day craving dinner since mom is not cooking. Saw so many people queuing at Ichiban boshi to buy ι±Όη home. So envy! I always envy people who share close relationship with family members and relative especially big family πͺ. So nice, everyone gather together to ζι±Όηlor!
Overheard a couple conversation. ....
Husband: (noticing wifey looking at people who is queuing up to buy ι±Όη) He asked wifey," do you want to ζι±Όη? "
Wifey: Only the 2 of us, how to ζι±Όη, cannot finish also.
Husband: Take out his HP & start to make arrangements.
Me: So envious cos they could just call their family or friends to join in. So nice.
That's impossible for me to contact people to do this type of events...
Nevertheless, I had a full craving meal as requested by my tummy. Japanese rice, wakami salad $6.30π¨, fried chicken π for dinner alone.
Today is δΊΊζ₯, can i make a wish?
Wished all can have good health, good weather & good career.
Some people/family will practice ζι±Όη!!
After work, I went to BKP to purchase my pay day craving dinner since mom is not cooking. Saw so many people queuing at Ichiban boshi to buy ι±Όη home. So envy! I always envy people who share close relationship with family members and relative especially big family πͺ. So nice, everyone gather together to ζι±Όηlor!
Overheard a couple conversation. ....
Husband: (noticing wifey looking at people who is queuing up to buy ι±Όη) He asked wifey," do you want to ζι±Όη? "
Wifey: Only the 2 of us, how to ζι±Όη, cannot finish also.
Husband: Take out his HP & start to make arrangements.
Me: So envious cos they could just call their family or friends to join in. So nice.
That's impossible for me to contact people to do this type of events...
Nevertheless, I had a full craving meal as requested by my tummy. Japanese rice, wakami salad $6.30π¨, fried chicken π for dinner alone.
Today is δΊΊζ₯, can i make a wish?
Wished all can have good health, good weather & good career.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
Topic requested by LC-1
Blog topic requested by LC-1: Where I want my LambChop to bring me?
I want my LC to bring me to his world π. Epic answer?!! I always wanted to go to my LC's world. I feel I am from another planet trying to connect with him but it seems to be a dream. I know he is loving me with all he can with his heart, providing & fulfilling my wishes with his best resources. His way of letting me taking care of his finance is buying all things that I like. However, I am a very greedy Monkey who desires more than materialistic items. It's the soul connections, able to talk anything under the sun without withholding any words that worrying to hurt or anger each other. Probably, you will say..."Eeee, CMI aka cannot make it! Like some other gals who wished to control their the other half finance, I only wish to take care of my LC's finance & not control. To be more specific, it means knowing how much he earned, any winning or lose from his investments during friendly MJ or building axe. I guess he worries if I would nag, angry & "can't sleep"/ can't stop asking if I know the amount of investment he have done. Finance aka $π΅is a sensitive topic to talk about actually. To me, it feels like a barrier between us. I am also learning to "let it go, let it go!" Stop my curiosity & interest in being finance minister. Hope I would succeed.
Places in Singapore: Go with LambChop :... so long never go beach, fly kite, bowling, ktv. Places that has live band, I am still thinking, add on when I have inspiration.
Bring me & mama go: Zoo, sentosa sea aquarium
As for which countries I want my LambChop to bring me? My answer will be lame... many lor! Wished to go many countries.
For example, 1)Taiwan-Taipei, Kending, etc, exploring their different parts of Taiwan, understanding their cultures, taste each places specialty. 2) Korea 3) Philippines 4)Japan 5)New Zealand 6) Europe 7) Australia 8) BKK
Not in alphabetical order, depends on mood, season, air-fare price,available leave etc.
What about my LambChop?
I want my LC to bring me to his world π. Epic answer?!! I always wanted to go to my LC's world. I feel I am from another planet trying to connect with him but it seems to be a dream. I know he is loving me with all he can with his heart, providing & fulfilling my wishes with his best resources. His way of letting me taking care of his finance is buying all things that I like. However, I am a very greedy Monkey who desires more than materialistic items. It's the soul connections, able to talk anything under the sun without withholding any words that worrying to hurt or anger each other. Probably, you will say..."Eeee, CMI aka cannot make it! Like some other gals who wished to control their the other half finance, I only wish to take care of my LC's finance & not control. To be more specific, it means knowing how much he earned, any winning or lose from his investments during friendly MJ or building axe. I guess he worries if I would nag, angry & "can't sleep"/ can't stop asking if I know the amount of investment he have done. Finance aka $π΅is a sensitive topic to talk about actually. To me, it feels like a barrier between us. I am also learning to "let it go, let it go!" Stop my curiosity & interest in being finance minister. Hope I would succeed.
Places in Singapore: Go with LambChop :... so long never go beach, fly kite, bowling, ktv. Places that has live band, I am still thinking, add on when I have inspiration.
Bring me & mama go: Zoo, sentosa sea aquarium
As for which countries I want my LambChop to bring me? My answer will be lame... many lor! Wished to go many countries.
For example, 1)Taiwan-Taipei, Kending, etc, exploring their different parts of Taiwan, understanding their cultures, taste each places specialty. 2) Korea 3) Philippines 4)Japan 5)New Zealand 6) Europe 7) Australia 8) BKK
Not in alphabetical order, depends on mood, season, air-fare price,available leave etc.
What about my LambChop?
Sunday, February 22, 2015
CNY 2015
CNY 2015 is just another day, another yearly festival, a love-hate relationship with CNY.
I loved CNY when I was young. My aunties, uncles will come to my Grandma house (my family stays with Grandma in a big kampong house in " Lim Chu Kang") to celebrate CNY. My mom's "PorPor" will bring us to Bukit Timah Beauty would to buy some new clothes & food for me, brother & family. I loved it. My mom will slaughter ducks, chickens & prepare to give my uncles & aunties. I get to play with cousins. After my Grandma passed away, all these activites gradually cease.
Over the years, I developed a Love-Hate relationship for CNY.
I have always envy people who has a big family who shares close bonding with each family members. I am not so lucky to be part of this group.
I have a unique mom.
I just wished to have a normal family, probably difficult in this life, maybe next life-please try again next life.
Last year, my dad passed away hence according to chinese customs, we are not allowed to celebrate CNY (Anyway, we don't celebrate CNY in my family). My unique mom doesn't understand why we can't celebrate CNY. My brother once again did not contribute to the CNY stuffs- not surprising at all, predictable! No reunion dinner is common in my BKP hse too! We went to 3rd uncle & Ah Yee house as per mom's request. As usual, commom questions arised- my cousin asked," when are u getting married?" Any plans for kids? Nothing much to say mah!
Occassionally, I would ask my LC- "Can u bring me along whenever he say he is going to his customer house?" I know his reply would be " Cannot cos it's work related ." This year, he brought me along to his friends house. Thank you for bringing me. I am not trying to be the gal who want to intrude your peaceful life. Just want to know. No need to bring me along next time. I had great fun. Thank you.
I loved CNY when I was young. My aunties, uncles will come to my Grandma house (my family stays with Grandma in a big kampong house in " Lim Chu Kang") to celebrate CNY. My mom's "PorPor" will bring us to Bukit Timah Beauty would to buy some new clothes & food for me, brother & family. I loved it. My mom will slaughter ducks, chickens & prepare to give my uncles & aunties. I get to play with cousins. After my Grandma passed away, all these activites gradually cease.
Over the years, I developed a Love-Hate relationship for CNY.
I have always envy people who has a big family who shares close bonding with each family members. I am not so lucky to be part of this group.
I have a unique mom.
I just wished to have a normal family, probably difficult in this life, maybe next life-please try again next life.
Last year, my dad passed away hence according to chinese customs, we are not allowed to celebrate CNY (Anyway, we don't celebrate CNY in my family). My unique mom doesn't understand why we can't celebrate CNY. My brother once again did not contribute to the CNY stuffs- not surprising at all, predictable! No reunion dinner is common in my BKP hse too! We went to 3rd uncle & Ah Yee house as per mom's request. As usual, commom questions arised- my cousin asked," when are u getting married?" Any plans for kids? Nothing much to say mah!
Occassionally, I would ask my LC- "Can u bring me along whenever he say he is going to his customer house?" I know his reply would be " Cannot cos it's work related ." This year, he brought me along to his friends house. Thank you for bringing me. I am not trying to be the gal who want to intrude your peaceful life. Just want to know. No need to bring me along next time. I had great fun. Thank you.
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