Today is my Dad's 1st death anniversary. One year ago... I was accompanied him through his last journey before he ended his suffering & left us to a better place. Good & bad memories we had together is always on mind. Being a 1st child in Tan's family BUT too bad, I was borne as a daughter instead of son. I was told, it was my 2nd auntie who bought new baby clothes to fetch me home, my dad is probably too busy. As I grow up, we have so many good & bad times. We get extra pocket money when mu dad work or when he won $. The poorest time is when we had to eat the cheapest instant noodles for sometime. My mom is sick after her miscarriage. My aunties says it was my dad who made her get worse. I don't know. But he still cares for mom. I remembered we bought Macdonald to visit mom at the rehab Centre. Life is tough. I do not want to let anyone know about my situation, I become different!? When I grow older & start dating, dad wasn't "supportive". Well, which father is "supportive"? At least they communicate with each other but for me. We do have some arguments. In yr 2006, I did my ROM. I never thought this day would ever happen due to my "special" family situation. Dad gradually aged, medications, hospitalized & my responsibilities increased. I was pressurize, emotional, tired, financial drained & sad. Thankfully, my LC is supportive towards me most of the time. Thank you. Frequent visits to Dr Lim, hospital, hospitalization & eventually everything came to an end. Dad n myself never say "I love you" towards each other but we do care for each other even though I am only a daughter not a son.. I always felt not treated fairly cos I am a daughter. But dad used to picked durian when he was younger, keep all my favourite bittersweet durian for me, reserved crab claw for me, keep all nice food for me, worried if I will come home anot etc... THANK YOU FOR BEING MY DAD IN MY THIS ONLY LIFE. YOU ARE ALWAYS IN MY HEART... THE GOOD & BAD TIMES.
爸。。。I LOVE YOU.
爸。。。THANK YOU.
爸。。。SORRY.
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